Hi World

Hi every body that is stopping by to see what's new.
This is Going to go along the lines of the name of my blog.-- My Rambling.
I haven't been posting as I have been very busy. More busy than I prefer to be.
Having problems with sleeping, sometimes I feel I'm depressed, but then there are times that things seem to go great. I have started listening to some hypnosis from Mz Dominika. and that helps me sleep. I only have the 2 Free ones she gave out and I'm Lazy maybe a better word would be too cheap, to buy any more. They help me relax and go to sleep, I kind of think that they make me feel more feminine.  I seem to be obsessed with shaving my legs. I love the way they feel when I just shaved. So smooth. Love how they reflect the light and seem to shine after putting lotion on them,
I used to run a lot, but have injured myself and was told by the orthopedist to do PT. which I have, but still hurts to run. I started riding bike and there is just something missing from it that running has.
I swim now too. (which I could wear a bikini when I do. )  I lift weights too. not as much as I used to. Used to lift a lot. I had some big pects.  Now luckily they have turned to fat and I have nice b cup boobs. glad the pool is dark when I go swimming. Which they were C's.
I'm dressed right now. It has been so long. I can wear my panties to bed and sometimes I'll wear stockings too, but because my house has been like a airport with people coming and going I have never had time to get fully dressed. There is something about getting fully dressed that just seems so settling to one's soul. I wear panties at night but that just settles a little bit of the urge. But, putting on a bra, with the panties, stockings, and a hugging dress with heels is just so... I don't know how to describe it. Maybe an inner peace.
I so admire those that can dress all the time. I'm so envious. Me I look like a guy in a dress and I don't think there is enough makeup on this planet that can make me look like a girl.
What do people think of finasteride?  I know it's not estrogen, but if you block your testosterone with it would your body change with just it.
Stepped away for a minute to try to adjust this thing. I put on a Chasity device  Friday afternoon,  I'm mailing the key to myself.  I should get it back by Monday after noon. Now it is pinching me and it's a little uncomfortable. I think it's cause I'm dressed. I've had it on in the past, but never with a tight gaff and being dressed. I usually tuck when I'm dressed. Now I just realized that the key won't get back till Tuesday.  I've never worn it when I'm dressed, just with my panties. never with a gaff. I think I may have to take it off.

You had me at Hi !

Ron's girlfriend did a make over on him and told him that if he came home with evidence that he had been with a man, then she would take his cage off for a night.  He had gone to the party with her and was watching from the side of the room when this man had come up to her and said hi.  He then proceeded to tell her how gorgeous he was, asking for his phone number. He knew that he was going to get lucky with this man.  He knew that he would be able to get his cage off.  But as he smiled he realized  how he was going to get the evidence to show his wife.
He asked,  "Do you have any rubbers?" He had a startled look on his face but said yes.

He smiled  even more.

Just a kiss.

It was my companies Halloween party and my friend said that he thought that I should try going as a girl.  I have  soft features and long hair and he thought that I could probably pull it off, and no one would guess that it was me.  If I won for best costume I could win $100. He thought that we could go as a couple.  I could get a nice dress and he would rent a tuxedo.
 I did find a nice dress and outfit

We went to the party and I got into my role as girl friend. We had some snacks and drinks and some dancing.  It was a great night. We did win for best looking couple.   We took a Uber back to his place and we were sitting on his couch having some wine. He excused himself to go to the bath room, came back and sat down. He was a little drunk and had forgotten to zip his fly. And forgot to put his member back in his boxers.  He was not hanging out, but if he moved, he would fall out. I was not for sure with what to do.  I wasn't shocked, but for some reason I couldn't take my eyes off of it. We were sitting close and he had his arm around me. Why wasn't I getting out of the girlfriend mode.  He leaned over and kissed me on my lips. I was shocked but soon I realized I was kissing him back. He moved.   I moved. Then I felt it, on my arm. I moved my arm and touched it with my hand.  I thought I would just put it back in his pants. A least that's what I think I started to do. Then he kissed me again, and I guess I just held on to it. My, I couldn't believe how quickly it grew in my hand.  I was really at a loss with what to do.  There was part of me that was thinking I just let go, get up and walk away. But then there was the part of me that so wanted to still be his girlfriend.  I had such a great time with him tonight.  Well what is a little kiss going to do.

I've been his girl friend since.

I Hope some one missed me

I have been gone from posting for what seems like forever. My general feelings of insecurity are such that I hope I was missed.

I changed my password and forgot to write it down.  took forever to finally remember it.

Yeah for me!!

Yes.   I'm still  wishing I was a girl..

Tired of being a boy.

Finally got to dress after months.

Was thinking of posting a picture but.. no... a picture of me in a dress would turn every body off.

But this is who I wish I was.

I just love her hair, her eyes, her lips.
Wouldn't mind bigger boobs.
Yes maybe this size..

Then If  I'm special ordering my new girl body..
A cute tush would be geat too.

So my dreams and fantasies go on.

If you stopped to read. thanks for stopping by.
Wish I could get you a drink to get you to stay a little longer.